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ellie101's blog
| Saturday, December 31st, 2005
so many emotions at the moment.....
im pretty bored right now. ehh...thats ok......im kinda mad at mi b/f. and...if u have any advice on what 2 do on when u tell some1 u miss them, but they make up an excuse and leave b4 u get an answer outta them, please, feel free 2 comment, or message me. cause, i told him i missed him...twice. and both times...he made up an excuse and signed off(1st time) and hung up(2nd time). but, u tend 2 miss the person u love and helps 2 brighten up ur day when u have a pretty shitty week and a half away from them.i miss him so much. i wish he would tell me he even misses me...just a little...cause i dnt think he misses me at all. and i think i no y. it might b bcause im always calling him...and bcoming more of a pest...instead of a girlfriend. and...i dnt no if i wanna say im sorry...cause thats all i do...and 4 all i no...he might wanna break up...cause all i do is screw up.>gazes up at sky longingly< *sigh* mayb...it would b better if i didnt love him and we were just friends instead. then i wouldnt b such a pest. and i mean, we wouldnt hate each other...but...i like the feeling...of what love i get from him..if he still loves me that is...cause he might b sick of me...and im making a vow. im not gonna call...and im gonna try 2 stay away from him alittle. cause im always w/ him...except after school. but then i go and call. and whenever we talk, im always really depressed. that might also b another reason y he might think im a pest. i just cnt help it! on the out side, i seem happy. but on the inside, im bleeding, and torn. if there was a picture od mi heart, it would b all beaten up, and frayed, and in so many unfixable pieces. if there was a picture of mi soul, it would b brused and cut up and have deep gashes everywhere...or...there might not even b a soul left.i dunno. im inbetween death and life. im not sure which 1 i am. i would like 2 b death, end all this pain and sorrow. but, id like 2 b life as well, continue loving...but that love brings me pain.so, i dunno. id also like 2 b life cause of mi friends. but the pain is just unbearable.so much. so many tears. so many cuts. so much blood shed...so much...too much...too much.
Posted By ellie101 @ 10:26 PM | Comments: 0 |
| Wednesday, December 28th, 2005
tear by tear
Tear by tear
Poem by: Samantha
Tears, tears
They always fall
The fall because of a broken heart
They fall because of a scratch on your arm
They fall because you get over excited
They fall because you get excluded
They fall because of many reasons
For me,
They fall for love
The love in my heart is ripping me apart
And tears begin to fall
I cannot stop these tears of mine
Not until I die
But I am already dead inside
What’s the point of living,
If you cant feel alive?
I stopped living along time ago,
They just didn’t notice.
They didn’t notice these tears.
Tears of love,
Tears of the unwanted
Tears of the hurt and broken
Tears that fall
Fall and drown me in my own love and sorrow
My tears
Fall
And will never stop
So, I give up.
I give into the darkness that already rules my beating heart,
And now,
I ask, what’s the point?
There isn’t one,
Cause I won’t stop.
Posted By ellie101 @ 9:15 PM | Comments: 0 |
| Saturday, November 5th, 2005
this is just tooo fuckin funny!!!!!!
Okay guys these are some tough questions you up for
it? Gerard: Go for it Frankie: Shoot Skittles or M&Ms? Mikey: SKITTLES!!!!!!!!!!!FUCK YES SKITTLES!!!! G: wow uh, yeah have to agree with Mikey on that.
Skittles all the way. F: I prefer sweet stuff over chocolate anytime. Ray: Dude no way M&Ms are way better F: But they all taste the same!!!! Put some variety
in your life man!!!! Bob: Gummy bears G: Dumbass that wasnt one of the choices B: ..oh well it is now. Just so you know I didnt come up with this one:
Which would you rather do impregnate a cow or
eat road kill squirrel? F: Are there any alternate answers? G: Id rather eat road kill anything than get near a
cow. M: he hates cows. But seriously eating a road kill
squirrel? That would be just plain weird. And
disgusting. G: Cows smell like shit. F: How about neither R: Cmon Frankie you know you wanna fuck a cow or
two F: WHAT!!!! THATS PLAIN WRONG!!! B: Dude impregnating a cow just means you stick- M: EEEEWWWW!!!!!KEEP IT PG-13!!!PG-13!!!!! So whats the meanest thing your band mates have
ever done to you while on tour? R: Dont even get me started the list could go on
for hours. G: Come on. You know we pick on Mikey more than
anyone F: Weve all had our days. G:once you guys fucked up my samich and let me eat
it. I always thought it was sandwich G: When mikey was little he would say samich and it
just kind of stuck. B: tell her what they did to the sandwich!!! M: Oh God NOOO!!!!! G: I was making a tuna and whip cream samich and I
left for a second to go check on something.
When I came back my samich was no longer whip
cream and tuna it was Mikeys cum and tuna. It
was so fucking disgusting. I swear Ill get you
back for that. M: Yeah and you did. I remember this one time when
you and Frankie zipped me up in a sleeping bag
and dumped my in the pool at that one Sheraton
hotel because I wouldnt go up to that creepy
floor with you guys. What was so creepy about it? G: There was this fucking psycho Satanists cult up
there and Mikey was scared shitless. R: those guys were so cool F: there was this one guy who was chasing us around
the floor they were on and shouting at us in
latin. Or I think it was latin. We really
pissed them off. I guess he was trying to curse
us or something. Do you guys believe in that kind of thing? G: well weve had a few incidents with a Ouijia
board and were all very superstitious. F: dont go walking under ladders. Okay new subject. Again I did not have anything to
do with the making up of this question. Boxers
briefs man thong or commando. M: (laughing so hard he fell off the chair) F: MAN THONGS ALL THE WAY!!!! G: FUCK YEAH!!!!! R: boxers for me thanks B: No comment M: AHHH hes commando arent you? B: like I said no comment. G:GROSS!!!!!I AM NOT SITTING NEXT TO YOU
ANYMORE!!!!! OK a friend wanted to know what you really do in
the shower G: Well I take long hot pleasurable showers, and I
touch and scrub my whole entire body. M: Ewwwww T: Oh Mikey youve thought about that before M: Eeeeewwwww NO! G: Dont deny it! M: Shut up back to the question. G: That is part of the question. F: you guys are fucked up. T: Hey Mikey, dont you take toasters in the bath? G: YES he does! M: Well not anymore, every once in a while I do
like to watch T.V. in the bath but I guess it's
not a safe thing to do! F: Youre such a dumbass! Okay this ones for Frankie. Have you ever thought
about one of your band mates in a sexual way
and if so who? F: Yes actually. But it was nothing too dirty or
anything. I just-there was this one pair of
pants he had that really showed off his ass and
uhpackage. G: Yeah everyone knows Im sexy. Definitely Gerard. Anyway one of your fans wanted
to know how far youve gotten with Bert G: OkayI havent fucked him havent sucked him or
vice-versa. But I have seen him naked. F: I think Bob and Ray left us. M: Wussies cant handle the sex talk G: Youre one to be talking. M: FUCK YOU! G: FUCK YOURSELF! M: GO FUCK A COW! G: GO FUCK A TOASTER AND TURN IT ON! M: GO FUCK YOUR MOM! G: SHES YOUR MOM TOO DUMBASS!!!! okay I think its safe to say that this interview is
over F: On behalf of all the rest of MCR and myself WELL
SEE YA AT THE SHOW!!!! G: GO FUCK A WHALE!!!! M: HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY THAT IM NOT
INTERESTED IN YOU LIKE THAT GERARD!!!
Posted By ellie101 @ 10:26 AM | Comments: 0 |
| Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
furture mrs.v?
hello rymes with allo wich rymes with ello, wich is what i say to mi crush each and every day and i blush wich rymes with flushed with is how i look after gym which leads to after school which rymes with fool because i am and i always sit and wonder will i become mrs.v?i hope that's who'll i'll be in the future!.....i mean um....*kof kof*i didn't say anything you got that?!!!?
Posted By ellie101 @ 8:01 PM | Comments: 1 |
| Sunday, September 25th, 2005
ello
ello rymes with jello and jello rymes with fello and a fello would be someone like gerard way and gerard way is way hot and hot rymes with not bacause the other band members in MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE are not as hot as gerard way, and gerard way rymes with my way, and if i had it my way, i'd be mrs.way!!!!!!
Posted By ellie101 @ 12:28 PM | Comments: 1 |
| Saturday, September 24th, 2005
chikin
i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored......this is pointless.....i'm bored
Posted By ellie101 @ 4:48 PM | Comments: 1 |
| Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
empty heart
HERE I AM
SITTING IN THE DARK
CRYING MY EYES OUT
WITH AN EMPTY HEART
LONELY THOUGHTS INVADE MY MIND
AS TIME GOES BY AND BY
WISHING THAT MY ONE TRUE LOVE WILL COME
GAZING OUT MY WINDOW
STARING AT THE NIGHTTIME SUN
CHEWING SOME GUM
ONCE AGAIN MY MIND IS UNCLEAR
AS I HEAR THINGS I WISH NOT TO HEAR
COUPLES PASS BENEATH MY FEET AT 11:33
COMING BACK FROM A ROMANTIC DATE
AND AS THEY PASS I THINK
WHT OH WHY CAN'T THAT BE ME?
Posted By ellie101 @ 5:14 PM | Comments: 0 |
| Monday, September 5th, 2005
MY SONG:RUN AWAY
NO LIMITS
Run Away
SPEAK:
I MUST
I HAVE TO RUN AWAY
I HAVE TO GET AWAY FROM HERE
GO!!!
SING:
THIS PLACE IS TO CALM FOR ME TO
I HAVE TO BE FREE
TO RUN GRABBING AT THE FREEDOM AROUND ME
SWIRLING UP AND AROUND MY BODY
SWIRLING ALL AROUND ME!
[CHORUS]
I HAVE TO RUN AWAY
I HAVE TO GET AWAY
IT’S HOLDING ME BACK
IT’S TEARING ME APART
I’M RIPPING MY HAIR OUT BY THE ROOTS
PEOPLE HOLDING ME DOWN
I’M IN SO MUCH PAIN
THIS REALLY, REALLY SUCKS!!
I THINK I’M GONNA SCREAM!!!
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
[CHORUS]
I HAVE TO RUN AWAY
I HAVE TO GET AWAY FROM HERE
IT’S HOLDING ME BACK
IT’S TEARING ME APART
I NEED TO GO
I NEED TO RUN AWAY!
IT’S HOLDING ME BACK
IT’S TEARING ME TO SHREDS
CAN I GO NOW
SHOULD I LEAVE NOW
I’M RUNING ACROSS THE YARD
I’M GOING AWAY
I’M FREE
I AM FREE!!!!
TRUST ME!
[CHORUS x2]
I HAVE TO RUN AWAY
I HAVE TO GET AWAY FROM HERE
IT’S HOLDING ME BACK
IT’S TEARING ME APART
I NEED TO GO
I NEED TO RUN AWAY!
IT’S HOLDING ME BACK
IT’S TEARING ME TO SHREDS
TCH. WHAT A DREAM
Posted By ellie101 @ 3:54 PM | Comments: 4 |
| Monday, September 5th, 2005
i love these songs!!!
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE LYRICS
"Helena"
Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you
Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
and
"Thank You For The Venom"
Sister, I'm not much a poet, but a criminal
And you never had a chance
Love it, or leave it, you can't understand
A pretty face, but you do so carry on,
and on,
and on
I wouldn't front the scene if you paid me
I'm just the way that the doctor made me, on,
and on,
and on,
and on
Love is the red of the rose on your coffin door
What's life like, bleeding on the floor,
the floor,
the floor
You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me a reason to believe
[Chorus]
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will
Preach all you want but who's gonna save me?
I keep a gun on the book you gave me, hallelujah, lock and load
Black is the kiss, the touch of the serpent son
It ain't the mark or the scar that makes you one,
and one,
and one,
and one
You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me a reason to believe
[Chorus]
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will
You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
You wanna follow something
Give me a better cause to lead
Just give me what I need
Give me a reason to believe
[Chorus x2]
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will
and
I'm Not Okay (I Promise)"
Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)
Posted By ellie101 @ 1:32 PM | Comments: 1 |
| Saturday, September 3rd, 2005
i'm gonna be famous!
yes i'm gonna be famous!alot of people at my school either don't know me even though i'm in half their classes or they don't reconize me or they think i'm a nobody so i'm gonna be famous! i'm already writing some songs and i'm really good at acting so i'm gonna be an actress/singer! i just hope i'm one of the people who will be know by everyone nomatter what!!!!
Posted By ellie101 @ 8:27 PM | Comments: 0 |
| Saturday, September 3rd, 2005
aaaahhhh.......
aaaahhhh.......HELP!!!!okay, so in one week my life went from bad to worse. so sunday, mom grounds me for not getting her toilet paper, then that afternoon, she freakin takes my MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE cd and bends in all these different anngles till it breaks,monday, i got yelled at repeatedly,tuesday,i got freakin yelled at some more,then wen. comes and i find out something is wrong with our dog,Amber,thursday Amber,our dog, freakin dies,friday, get lied to by my mom, and today i got blamed for crap i didn't even freakin do!!!then i also got yelled at for not cleaning my room(making my bed) and then spanked twice!!!once for not cleaning and another for who knows what!no, really, i'm watching tv in my room and my dad comes in and is all like "WHAT ARE SUPPOSED TO BE DOING?" and i'm all like 'CLEANING." and so he was all like "AND WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" and i'm all like "NOT CLEANIG." and he was all like "ASSUME THE POSITION!" so i bend over and he spanks me and after that i just stare at him and he said "OKAY ONE MORE" so i bend over once more. but it was real pointless. i swear. it was real stupid.
Posted By ellie101 @ 7:38 PM | Comments: 0 |
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