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Saturday, May 19th, 2007
Dennis Paul
Vote for my friend DENNIS PAUL. He is a really GREAT artist, and deserves more credit than he has been given. Here is the link.
http://www.rock365.net/poll.html
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Thursday, August 31st, 2006
KoRn in concert...
shit i dont know why i dind't think of this sooner... lol ... on monday me and my best frined amanda went to the family values concert... say dir en grey... whom she adores... and stone sour and flyleaf and deftones and most importantly.. KoRn!!!! omfg!!!! i had yet to have seen johnathan live... and all i have to say is WOW!!!!... i never realzied how GREAT they are in concert... Nicole another friend that was with us said that the next time they come in that she and i will have to go... best concert (to date) i have gone to... it was very entertaining...
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Saturday, October 29th, 2005
OCT 28th... BITTER CANDI 2ND PLACE!!!!
omg my flipping gosh... that was THE best crowd they've had yet.... and seriously... they played better for it... it was one of those times where it seems like the band was feeding off the crowds energy... i still say they shudda one first place... but whatever.. i didn't hear the other band... so i can't be picky... i think that, that was one of their better shows... so R.O.M. must've rocked the socks if they won first place... 16 hours of recording time... that wudda been awesome!!!... but we'll make due on 4hours... lol ..
yep so... they won first on the kathedral stage (there were 2 stages so there was two bands playing at any one time) and R.O.M. obviously won first for the other one... considering they were from the other stage... i personally think they shudda had a 1st-3rd place for both stages.. and given the "prizes" out accordingly.. but oh well...
done and done.. it was a good show and ... i can't wait for the next one
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Friday, October 28th, 2005
SoCo CODE @reverb set
Anti.Social Tour Hits Toronto!
Thursday October 27th, 2005 :: by Supernova
Click here for show details
Social Code has been quite busy over the last week hitting cities throughout southern Ontario. Toronto fans, it's finally your turn! Friday, October 28th at the Reverb (651 Queen ST. West) -- if you don't have tickets and taking your chances at the door, prepare to be there early! Doors at 5:00PM!
Bands: Opening bands must arrive by 4:00PM to load-in and sound check. Please be advised -- this will be a busy show, so arrive as early as possible! All bands must arrive 2 hours before their set! Please also be prepared for live shows to run early or late!
* List and times subject to change
REVERB
05:30 MY TRAGIC ENDING
06:00 NOXIT
06:30 HORIZONTAL MAMBO
07:00 SAINTS MEMORIAL
07:30 R.O.A.
08:00 F1RST GEAR
08:30 ONE SECOND 2 LATE
09:15 SOCO SET UP
09:45 SOCIAL CODE
10:45 PLANET4
11:15 OCTOBER LANE
11:45 STATE OF GRACE
12:15 JOYRIDE
KATHEDRAL
05:30 JOINING TRAGEDY
06:00 ILL ADVISED
06:30 FALL THE LOSS
07:00 SWEET NIGHTMARE
07:30 15 MINUTES
08:00 WHITE ASHLEY
08:30 THE WASTED SPADES
09:00 EYE OF MORNING
09:45 Social Code @ Reverb
10:45 BITTER CANDI
11:15 STOP, DROP 'N SKANK
11:45 FIFTH BASE
12:15 GOODBYE NORMA JEAN
So what are our local bands doing to get ready for this hot show?
Toronto's rising sons , Eye Of Morning, get wet on CHUM Television's Ed's Night Party promoting Supernova's upcoming show with Social Code for Friday October 28th at the Reverb.
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Thursday, October 27th, 2005
OCT 28th @ the reverb
i'm so excited.. (i'll post waht happened here after the experience is over) but for now excitement all around... anyone in the toronto area come check out bitter candi www.bittercandi.com and social code at the reverb.. doors open at 5pm and tix go for $17 at the door and $12 with the band :D... it's gonna be a blast.. i always have fun with those guys :p... CAN T WAIT the more the merrier! so bring friends... :D GOD I CAN'T WAIT!!!
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Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
i'm a complainer and i know it
12:47am) *sigh* ... ok! so ummm ya it talked it out with u... and whatever frustration i had left has gone out with my other conversations lol... everyone has gone off to bed ... and it's basically just me and the computer right now lol... ( i have to get up at 6am tomorrow too!) anyways... yes .. heart being poured out,... lol i'll let u know EVERYTHING including things u already know... suggestion: PRINT IT lol and read it when ur not busyt at work.. it's REALLY LONG!!! go check im not lying... lol 3 and a half pages... and 3512 words i even printed it out i shud know...
u kno what's funny... my mother said "be home before us" i asked what time is that she said " around 10" they didnt come home till 11pm... !!! dont ask it's dome leadership crap... my father is training to be a DECAN!!! ahhh!!!! ( second in command to a preist) do u kno how much pressure that is... i HAVE to be good all the time.... we have a DECAN at our church whose daughter got pregnant... he uses it as fuel to tell stores for the gospel and shit... ekk that means.. he'll be telling stories of US!... not that it matters cuz my mother goes along and sings all sorts of praises about me anyways... and she enjoys telling me what to do all the time... GRRR!!!... SO annoying!....
i'm 18! i'm considered an ADULT! .. if i want to stay up all nite on the computer... than let me... and let me live the consequences (sp?) it's my own fault GD! blah! ... (oh ya i tend to say DAMN alot, brandon hates, that... ) lol ... BLAH! mothers! ... (if i wasn't so tired i cud think more clearly.. consider the time lol)
Natalie:... that girl is like half of my problems... i worry about her all the time... she doesn't know it... but Brandon does... and so do u... and u kno why... ok.. let me explain .. if i haven't already (she cud probably do a better job than me if u ask after all it IS HER story) her father at 8 said she wasn't wanted... and left her and her mother... and then her mother had a kid with some other guy and they got married... and tried to work things out no go... things got all screwed up.. and they are in the middle of a divorce... her little sister.. the child who came from the second marriage... is 9 ( i think ) now .. and she is in the middle of it all.. and natalie know the feeling and she doesn't want her little sister to go thru what she did.. but her little sister is a brat and a pain (sometimes) and just wont express herself and is worse than me when it comes to bottling up ... well she actually expresses it in anger (aillien that is, her little sis) and then as i told u her older sister has a messed up life of her own... dating a guy who is "using her" i'm telling u she CUD find better! ... lol what's funny is she kinda developed a thing for ED too!!!... god what is it with these ppl and liking him ... lol ... sure he's a nice guy.. sometimes lol.. but ... not "dating" material.. he is ... kinda like nat... yes.. he is... they are "perfect" for eachother... lol ... i can only imagine it now... 4 months down the road... well thanx ED nice to know u.. but DAVE is here so i dont need u anymore...BYE... and he wont overly care (i've talked to him about it already... a warning) and ya he dont really care.. he's doing the same thing she is... getin together wit MANY guys lol... well in his case girls .. but u kno what i mean... and that stupid ED business... ERRR!!!
and then when dave does get here she's gonna be disappointed... ya sure he likes her and ya sure he has a "thing " for her.. but he is 27! and i'm pretty sure he aint interested in any long term thing with her.. he is going to stay with her as long as he has to inorder to stay in that house... bcuz as soon as he and her "break up" this little "dating" that she will no longer like him living in the same house as her if she dones't get anything out of it... and so she'll forve her mother to make him leave... and then she'll be alone again.. mind u this will be liek 8 months from now... but u just wait and see.. i can see it happening.. i'm gonna keep a copy of this email just to be sure... and then she'll be on the "prowl" (sp?) again... and wont care again... and she'll expect me to help her find a guy cuz i have SUCH good judgement... that if she finds someone i have to help her be a decision maker her deciding point... lol... (if it were up to me... i'd send her off for a year of self discovery... away from everything and everyone... just her... and the necessary resources... and nature...) let her think for herself.. make decisions for HERSELF... dont get me wrong i love being included in the decision making process... but i shudn' be responsible to help with ALL of them... nat's mother is having some what of a break down her job is stressing her out... natalie has to use her moeny from work to help pay for the bills... and her mother is still stressed with the whole divorce situation... and she realizes what's happening to her girls and it worries her like no tomorrow... i love her dearly... she is like a second mother to me... and i want her to feel better and to be able to actually SLEEP at night for once... *sigh* and then u have the whole financial situation between her mom and nat's father... and her mom and her step-father lol... the step-father might be taken to court to settle the differences...
candice she's a good kid... i dont wry about her... she's little but she can take car of herslef (jsut so long as she dont drink too much.. she is a REALLy lite drinker get woozy after her first drink...) her ex boyfriend ALSO didn't treat her well... we all knew him personally... and he SEEMED like a nice guy... like i still talk to him and shit... cuz i dont like to take sides and he plays the story a completely different way... so u get left in the middle not know who to believe... so.. whatever... it's their stories from their own perspective... but ya... so she also thinks guys are crap lol... and will "love 'em" and leave 'em especailly on days where a guy "friend" of hers will do something she doesn't like... ex. brush her off... i did not liek DOUG (nat's first SERIOUS bf from the start and i think thats why she wants me to help decide and i get the same feeling with him that i am gettin with this "BRANDON" one... from online... he live in the city.. which sure is good and all.. but not worth it if he's an ass... and apparently she'd supposed to see him tomorrow after work... lol
andre is great..!!! he is a stress release... no matter what .. u can count on him... well except at work hours... lol... and that's liek all the time lol... (it was funny cuz on our way there... natalie said tha when she was talking to andre he asked "is krissy gonna be there?" as if it was some decided point whether or not he came lol... when he's there it's nothing but good memories!... he can make ppl happy and keep them happy...! i haven't met his g/f yet.. but he and i... are almost one in the same in those repspects... barely get to see our love insterests and liek to make ppl happy
my mother... GOD!...she's a huge problem all on her own... she doesn't even deserve to be ranted on in here... lol ... seriously it can get THAT bad! lol
my little brother... lol it's his first year of high school... and i love the kid and all but he is having difficulty in his english class... *sigh*... and the sad thing is i cant help but notice my parents kinda give him that "why cant u be like ur sister" mentality u kno... and that makes me sad cuz i kno it doesnt reallt make him that motivated... when i learned the piano .. he wanted to learn and i taught him the best i cud.. but he decided to go his own way... and now he plays the drums lol.. (i can also play the clarinet) and he and his BESTEST BEST friend from grade school are kidna breaking up.... i can see it happening... and honestly if it werent for my brother taking the intuitive to go over to his house and play video games till the cows come home (lol) then that relationship wud be gone by the end of the school year. robert (brother best friend) he too is having english problems lol (i shud set up a tutoring/editing service lol) that and a dating service lol...
my father he's kool for the most part.. but he is liek NEVER home.. and all last week he did night shift so we NEVER saw him and my mother.. she too is rarely here... it is usually just me and my brother... he has been coming downstairs to see me alot more than he used to... which is comforting... my mother thinks that this family is going to magically get better with out having to do anytihng lol .. HA! ... she thinks that just because she says to clean up that everyone is gonna clean up for her and she is NOT expected to do any of the work... KRYSTLE go make dinner i'm watching my shows... Krystle go clean the dishes... i'm watching my shows... Micheal do the laundry.. i'm watching my shows... krystle make sure dinner is on the table when i get bak.. i have a meeting to go to..or i have to go work out... OH and teh other day... she told me... "guess what i lost 11 punds" and i said good for u!... which really i WAS happy for her and shit but she said it in such a way in the tone of her voice that she was kinda mocking me for not going bak into the whole workingout 6am-7am thing... blah! moving on... i am kinda mad at myself for that.. but i want my scars to heal a bit better first... they sill hurt...
school: is really overwhelming... although i only have 3 instead of 4 classes.. but the amount of h/w from those classes alone... not to mention the assigments and test can throw a person off their rocker... and on top of that i'm part of the school volunteering commitee
scars: the surgery.. i told u about it... i tihnk ... on AUG 19th... surgery... breast reductions... soon to be 6 month since i had it done! yay! and the doctor will want a check up.. make sure everything is healing right... the last time i went he said i was doing amazingly well.. i tihnk he was just telling me that... and ya they usually hurt at LEAST once a day .. if not more... and my bak is starting to hurt me agian..!!! err..!!
bittercandi: there lead drummer left... and so they are drummerless... but tis funny cuz he has been wanting to leave and shit so they let him go... and they are relying on me to be there... and to show i told them i wud... and i'm bringing me and 5 others in a car... and then i've invited liek at least... 7 other ppl.. all of which have to get bak to me by THIS friday.. otherwise they are not coming... that's what i have decided.. confrim by friday or ur cancelled and paying extra and coming on ur own time.. i'm sick and tired trying to run this stuff get aold of ppl "are you coming? how many tickets?" and so on...
and my number one fear... *sigh* BRANDON!!! my sweety... my little boy toy lol... i only see him once a week... and i put on a "front" but it DOES bother me that i only get to see him ONCE a week... and sometimes i even have to cancel that for school work... and he doesn't seem too happy when i talk to him on the phone... he sounds so depressed and in result that makes me sad... and it's not liek i dont ask.. cuz i do.. but he hasn't been telling me lately... :(... i'm outta the loop... he used to tell me EVERYTHING... and as i've told u... our conversations have dwindled down to nothing but simple how are u's and how was ur day?... i kno we are runnign out of things to say... or so it seems... we dont have that "spark" that we used to have.. :'( [does it make sense to you y i wud cry everytime i think of how my and brandon's relationship is?] ex. the other day he failed a test and so he wudn't talk to me.. sure i understand he has to study... that's not what bothered me... what did was the next day i asked him "so waht test ... what class was it that u failed the test in?" and he said " it doesn't matter" and i was liek "ok" i kno doesnt seem like a big deal to u.. but it does to me... he used to simply tell me.. now he wont even tell me that... oh and on top of that.. i'm starting to think our realtionship has become a cheap way for him to release his "sexual frustations" not gonna get into details... we fool around... (no sex!) GAH!.. seriously the past 3 times i've gone over i've watched him... right away... he takes me upstairs.. maybe a little kiss at the door.. u kno w/e... and then upstairs he's start doing the things he knows that will get me started... i'm a sucker for being biten on the ear lobe and on the back of the neck... and a few other things... but those are the major... and so he'll do this... forget all the conversations and little talk let's get right into it... BLAH!... i wud tell him about it... but... he has enuff to wry about... he has work and school and a father who likes to yell at him every day... he doesnt need me nagging on him telling him i want more before cuddle time... we dont really have time for that if he wants what he usually wants... it's liek he has come to expect it... i have considered going along and living with him... mind u i wud be forced to sleep in the basement.. so really there wud be no point.. cuz the only reason i'd move in with him wud be to spend more time with him... and be abel to sleep by his side... (u realize i'm no longer typing for u but i am actually writing a journal entry lol) i do this all the time lol can u tell i like to wirte?.. lol mind i havent left a journal entry in a LONG time.. maybe that's why i'm all stressed i haven'y released ANY of this... sleep by his side... listen to him breathe and know that i have someone who cares... cuz honestly ... so many times i think that no one cares... and then there is my mother... yes.. there she is agian... she has never liked brandon and i dont think she will till the day one of us dies... she is always telling me to look for other ppl... ALWAYS... (it's been 3 years mother!!!! ) but she did get me thinking ... which REALLY kills me.. that i'm ACTUALLY considering it... he is my one... my only.. i have NEVER dated ANYONE else... and on top of that... i have now found 2 guys just like him who wud treat just the same as he does... with respect... and tenderness... and most of all with love...
my friend curtis... i've known him as long as i have known brandon ..but he lives in windsor... and i've only met up with him once cuz he is ALWAYS sleeping lol.. and when he's not he's doign sumthing else... but ya.. he's been real suicidal lately and that scares me... i dont kno what to do.. i'm really supportive and everytihng told him to go bak to school find himself a job... get off his butt and do sumthing... and honestly i tihnk that if i was living in windsor i wud've been dating him instead of brandon.. he too has a birthday in MAY... and he and i have become really good firends over the years... he tells me his problems and i tell him mine... which brings me to you too... birthday in MAY.. act SO much like him... :( ... just makes me think... what else / sry WHO else am i missing out on in this world... is he REALLY the ONE... why do we need just ONE anyways... ??... what if i meet someone in college... what if HE meets someone... ? *sigh* u kno those thots... the last time i had those thots were a year ago and i told Brandon about them and he made them go away but now.. he's IN COLLEGE... what if he IS interested in this girl but i'm keeping him from seeing her... what if SHE is his one ... not me... all these thots.. lead to nothingl.. as i told u before.. jsut stupid thots... i tihnk ALOT!.. more than i shud! ...
and then amanda and jennifer.. whom i told u about.. jennifer with the baby... and the really suppostive father.. she wants to get bak into school... and amanda... man.. i rarely se eher anymore.. i rarely talk to her anymore... it's liek my life is falling apart everyone is separting (sp?) from me :(
work:damn i just remembered.. natalie wanted me to give her a copy of my resume so she cud get me a job at her work... dammit! ... i need a job... i need to pay bak my mom and i need to have enuff money to go to the shows in toronto and support the band luckily DAG is AWESOME and he is willing to pay for my ticket for me... *sigh*... and i need to get money to pay bak my uncle for the dirt cheap fixer uper he's buying for me... and then i have to ask my school if they are willig to take in a volunteered car and fix it up.. just so long as they dont bang is up lol... but FIX it lol.. and then my architecture class.. my co-op teacher STILL hasn't called me.. i shud call him tomorrow afternoon if he doesnt call me...
ps. i want to kno... u said that i am one of the rare few that get to see "this" side of you... did the others see "that" side of you?.. just wondering.. cuz i know u didn't talk much to them or anything... well not as much as the rest of us... then again.. u were the only "new" one there... so i can understand... but??? u seemed the same to me... lol ... but i get to see the GREAT side bout u! ..hopefully i'll get to make a habit outta seeing u... i kno u dont like schedules... but my life is almost ran on schdules... lol... i have to have everything a certain way or i get thrown off and cant find time to do anything... u kno... i have to set aside enuff time to do everything or i end up doing (next to) nothing...
pps. would u of really of dated me??? u kno... if i WASN'T taken??? oh and sry about the enromous read .. especially so early in the morning.. i shudve cut it in 2 parts.. oh well this way u get to see EVERYTHING! lol suggestion: PRINT IT lol and read it when ur not busyt at work.. lol i'll place this sooner too lol and lastly... i want to kno that secret of urz... especailly after ALL of THIS! ok now u have an idea ... lol and these things go thru my mind ALL the time and it's driving me NUTS!!! oh ya... as of now! lol 3 and a half pages... and 3502 words ... lol and now i'm up in 3 hours.. so ya .. thanx for the rant sry for how long it is... must be a pain to read it all ... hope u enjoyed lol.. nite! *huggles*(3am)
Posted By freakluver @ 12:36 PM | Comments: 0 |
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