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Monday, June 27th, 2005
DAVEY HAVOK INTERVIEW
Interview with Davey Havok of AFI
(04/01/01)


Alright, what follows is an interview I did with Davey Havok of AFI back on April Fool's Day 2001. Before we get to that, I'd like to give a little background information on the interview. Back in 2001, I was a huge fan of AFI, but I wasn't one of those idiots who now plague the malls with their AFI wristbands and Finch t-shirts. I loved the band, but couldn't help but make fun of their fans and everyone involved: a sign of endearment, I would say.

Anyway, over the years, I've read countless interviews with bands, and they always manage to ask the same questions time and time again. It was time I stepped in to make things interesting. Since I loved AFI so much and cracking jokes about them was so easy and so fun, I figured they would be the perfect band for my first interview. Of course, since I wasn't writing for any zine and it was just for my personal satisfaction, I had some trouble scoring the interview. I had to lie to Mitch over at Nitro Records, telling him I was a writer for this made up zine, and we had interviewed all these bands and were looking to do AFI for our next issue. Thankfully, he bought it, and got myself and my friend Eric Craven into the show for free and booked us some time to interview the band.

The interview was supposed to be for the whole band, but only Davey showed up. Hey, it works for me. He's the only one the kids care about anyway. This also worked out for the best, considering Eric and Davey were friends at the time (although now, Davey doesn't even talk to him.what with being so busy with all his OTHER fans), so it made everything a hell of a lot less formal.

The interview was a lot of fun to do. Many of Davey's answers are very ironic given the context in which the band finds themselves now. Please let me know if you Davey Havoks like this: Doug at iohyouth.com.



Doug IOH:
So I guess we’ll start off with... What are your plans after Warped Tour?

Davey Havok:
After Warped Tour? Um, I believe we’re going to do a headlining tour of the United States in the fall... um which will probably start somewhere around end of September the beginning of October and will go for about a month and will hit like, just the major cities... um, come back from that and um, supposedly we were supposed to go to the Australian Warped Tour this year, and its supposedly moved to December of 2001. So if that works out then we will go do the Australian Warped Tour. And then, we would also like to go to Japan in December as well, but I’m not sure if that’s gonna happen. And then after that, we’ll start working on a new record.

Doug IOH:
That’s actually my next question. Will there be a new e.p. before the next full length?

Davey Havok:
Nope, no. we’re doing a DVD but that will be the only thing that will come out before.

Doug IOH:
Ok, then uh... What’s your favorite color?

Davey Havok:
Uh, I don’t have a favorite color, I’m sorry.
*Some kid says, "what about black?"*
Black is a shade, its not a color.

Eric:
I have a question about the DVD, you guys recorded, like, two shows for that, right?

Davey Havok:
Ya.

Doug IOH:
Are both shows going to be on there, or are they just going to be highlights of both shows?

Davey Havok:
Yea, I think its going to be the highlights. Actually, I think we filmed, well, I guess we only did two. I thought we were doing three, but I guess we’re only doing two. And then we’ll be filming all of Warped Tour - or at least most of Warped Tour. So there’ll be highlights from most of those shows and then like, us like, sitting around and being stupid. [laughs]

Doug IOH:
Hah, alright. So then what kind of cereal do you like the best?

Davey Havok:
Cereal? Um, my favorite cereal of all time I haven’t been able to eat for years once I stopped eating gelatin, and that um, those were the Monster Cereals. I really really liked Dino Pebbles, which if it still existed, which they didn’t, they discontinued it after like a year I still wouldn’t be able to eat that either, so um, the stuff I eat now... I eat, um, Life.

Eric:
Cinnamon Life?

Davey Havok:
Yea, I like both of them. Umm, what else? What others? I like granola cereal. [laughs]

Eric:
So um, did Boo Berry ever make your poop green?

Davey Havok:
No, wow.

Eric:
Cause it makes mine green. Every single time.

Davey Havok:
Wow... that’s unfortunate.

Eric:
Which was your favorite one?

Davey Havok:
Frakenberry I think was my favorite, followed by Boo Berry.

Eric:
Did you eat Fruity Yummy Mummy?

Davey Havok:
Yummy Mummy? Yeah. Yeah, before they off-ed it. Yeah, Yummy Mummy was good, but I prefer... there was a cereal called Kaboom, but I think it was only East Coast, like, I never found it on the West Coast. And that was pretty similar to Yummy Mummy. Yeah.

Eric:
But its not the same...there aren't any mummy shapes.

Davey Havok:
No, its not the same, it's similar but, um yeah... Mummy used to be Wolfberry years ago, and then it went away.

Doug IOH:
Alright.So there’s a single for Days of the Phoenix, but its only out in Europe, why is this?

Davey Havok:
Well, England, yea. Um, Its only out there because um, its kinda how it works out there in England. They are far more single oriented, the United States doesn’t really necessitate that, so we never even bothered to even considering making one, but since we’re going over there to do, to headline a tour as soon as we get back from this tour, they said, "You need to make a single." "Alright." So we made a single.

Doug IOH:
Is there anything on that? Like, anything special?

Davey Havok:
Yea, actually there is one unreleased song on it. It's called, "A Winter’s Tale".

Doug IOH:
Shit, looks like I gotta pick that up... [laughs]

Eric:
What about the artwork?

Davey Havok:
Uh, its just pieced together from the Art of Drowning artwork.

Doug IOH:
Alright. Um, how about... What’s your favorite pick-up line?

Davey Havok:
I don’t have a pick-up line. Someone asked me that already, just a few days ago. Um, I’ve, uh, I’ve never had one used on me, and I’ve never used one on anybody else, so um, I’ve heard some. I like the one that goes, "Did it hurt?"

Doug IOH:
What?

Davey Havok:
When you fell from heaven? I like that. [laughs] I would never ever use that...but, yeah. So far this is a very good interview by the way.

Doug IOH:
Aw, thanks.I’ve just been thinking of stupid questions over the last week to ask you.

Davey Havok:
Hey, I like it. [laughs]

Doug IOH:
What uh, what Star Wars character best defines you as a person?

Davey Havok:
Shit, Star Wars. See I’m not the big Star Wars fan, you’d get a much better answer outta someone like Hunter or Adam. Let’s see... Star Wars character... not Luke... not Darth Vader... um, not Han Solo... Oh, you know? [hearty chuckle] You know what? My friend Jeff used to say that I was Salacious... Salacious... Um

Doug IOH:
Salacious Crumb?

Davey Havok:
Yea, Salacious Crumb. And whenever he used to see that, he’d say, "That’s you". So I guess that’s me... unfortunately. [laughs]

Doug IOH:
Alright this is a little bit older, but I’ve never really seen it asked... so uh, How was covering Guns N Roses for the Punk Goes Metal comp?

Davey Havok:
It was cool, I mean it was... they asked us to do the metal comp, and we love Guns N Roses, and I really think Appetite for Destruction was one of the best albums ever. And we talked about it, and My Michelle is one of... I think my two favorite songs on that album are My Michelle and Rocket Queen, and I happened to get my way. [laughs] Sometimes that happens... and we covered My Michelle, and it was really fun, and I love Guns N Roses.

Doug IOH:
Any chance of playing My Michelle live ever?

Davey Havok:
No, sorry. This is the third time I’ve been asked tonight.

Doug IOH:
Tonight? Wow, ok... how many times has this been asked... Are you 100% evil?

Davey Havok:
[laughs] One.

Doug IOH:
Alright.

Davey Havok:
Oh shit, I lost a ring. I sure hope it's in my pocket. This motherfuckin ring. Ok, I had one and it broke in half and I got another one, and now it disappeared. Continue your interview, I’m hoping it's in my pocket.

Doug IOH:
Okay, let’s see, uh. Well, here’s a little bit of a more darker and serious question.

Davey Havok:
Okay.

Doug IOH:
Your earlier lyrics have been a tad depressing. 3 ½ even alludes to suicide. Yet ever since Black Sails, that depressing factor seems to be lifting... for example, "Narrative of Soul Against Soul" appears to be an anti-suicide manifesto.

Davey Havok:
Mmhmm

Doug IOH:
Do these songs accurately portray your views on life?

Davey Havok:
Yes, all of them. [laughs] Really. Each song is kind of a separate entity within itself, y’know? It's an expression of how I’m feeling at the time or how I’m feeling about a certain aspect of myself or of my life, and they each kind of stand on their own in that respect, but they’re all from my feelings and how I feel, and they’re all very honest, so yes. And I’ve lost my ring. [laughs] Where the fuck did I lose my ring? This is not my day for losing things. It was such a good ring!

Eric:
Don’t forget to ask about the swearing question.

Doug IOH:
Oh yea! That’s actually a good question.

Davey Havok:
Ok, what’s the question?

Doug IOH:
Here’s another question kinda like that last one. Some of the older stuff like, Very Proud of Ya and stuff like that, there was a lot of swearing...

Eric:
A lot of GOOD swearing.

Davey Havok:
Yes.

Doug IOH:
Yea, but lately, I haven’t heard any, sort of like you’re dodging it.

Davey Havok:
That’s true. Um, I’m over it. Just as a result of the superfluous, just unnecessary swearing that I did on that album, it was just so much, it was like, "Ok... alright, that’s done. Y’know, I decided that I’m not against using it anymore, um, it could happen again... it might, it might very well. But it just got to be overused, it just lost any sort of impact for me, y’know, where I was saying "Fuck fuck fuck fuck" and its like, "Ok, its done." I can do a little better than that. Now I can express myself better than that. And I think now where I’d use it, it would have more impact... just because I haven’t used it every other word just like I was this time.

Eric:
That answers your previous question, he’s not evil, he’s found Jesus.

Davey Havok:
Hey, I haven’t heard that found Jesus question!

Doug IOH:
No no, the "Are you 100% evil?" question.

Davey Havok:
Oh, you asked how many times I was asked that question.

Doug IOH:
Yea, well... Ok, so then are you 100% evil or?

Davey Havok:
No.

Doug IOH:
Have you found Jesus?

Davey Havok:
No.

Doug IOH:
Neither? Ok.

Eric:
He gave up the swearing... because it's one of his commandments.

Davey Havok:
[laughs] Well, Jesus and I are really close. Yea.

Doug IOH:
My friend’s family is really religious, and I got him into AFI, and he was really into it at first. And his mom doesn’t like it, and she told him it was Satanic, and he told me the same thing. He goes, "I don’t know why you like that band so much, because they’re Satanic". I didn’t know how to answer him. I didn’t know whether to say, "No they’re not!"

Davey Havok:
Well, you know, it's like [sighs]... it, would depend, well, no... well, it depends on what your definition of that is, I mean, I guess one could argue that we are Satanic because there are arguments that, you know, anything that could be considered as sacrilegious, or could be seen as anything as glorifying yourself as opposed to God. I mean if you look at strict Christian teachings, you are to place God before everything. Anybody doing otherwise could be construed as anti-Christian, and as a result Satanic. I mean, you could look at the writings of Mark Twain and call them Satanic, and it just depends on what your beliefs are. So if your friend think we are, then I guess we are to him.

Eric:
I always thought...

Davey Havok:
Do I worship the devil? No.

Eric:
Yea, that’s just what I was about to ask... that’s how I’d always seen Satanism, but I told him, "Look, the music’s good... so just listen and enjoy".

Davey Havok:
Yea, I mean the thing is that for a lot of really conservative people, it's music that is going to make them question themselves, and it's words that are going to make them push the boundaries of what they’re used to hearing. Because it's not nice and clean and happy and God-fearing by any means.

Eric:
He originally liked you guys, he likes a lot of your stuff, he likes music that is really emotional. He really liked the new cd...but because of his mom...

Davey Havok:
Yea, that’s really too bad. That’s sad. [laughs]

Eric:
He has a trampoline in his backyard though.

Davey Havok:
That’s good. At least he has that. [laughs] Get closer to God, right?

Eric:
Right. [laughs]

Doug IOH:
How was the European tour with the Offspring?

Davey Havok:
It was great. I mean it was really fun... like our reception was on and off. Like, certain shows, people hated us, certain shows they really liked us, certain shows they were like, "This is alright". As far as being on the tour, I mean, it was... like, luxurious. It was so great. The Offspring took such wonderful care of us, and you know, we were playing like, the biggest shows we’ve ever played in our lives. It was really cool.

Doug IOH:
So there is no new material is to be expected from Son of Sam, correct?

Davey Havok:
No. As far as I know of. [Big smile] Well, I mean, there’s the stuff that hasn’t come out yet. [laughs] There’s the first album, but further on from that there are no plans.

Doug IOH:
Rumor has it that Son of Sam might play some small shows?

Davey Havok:
Well, I... I definitely wouldn’t hold my breath for that, I mean, its possible, its not like we’re gonna tour. That’s not gonna happen. There is a possibility of us playing shows if we were all in the same place at the same time and had a couple days to set it up and practice and do it. But the chances of that are slim, because AFI is very very full-time for me, London is in Tiger Army, Todd is in Danzig, Steve lives in Jersey, he’s got China and his job, and it's... it’d be tough. But, we’d do it if we could. It would probably be at most two shows, probably Los Angeles and San Francisco.

Eric:
Around when? Where would you guys be around... say, June 15th through the 26th? Where are you gonna be at?

Davey Havok:
Where am I gonna be? At... in the middle of that I start Warped Tour.

Eric:
Ah, cause I’m gonna be out there...

Davey Havok:
It wouldn’t happen then. It won’t... like, if it... there are absolutely no plans for it. So, it would be a matter of us calling up each other and saying, like Steve saying, "Hey, I’m gonna be in L.A. for two weeks at this time and Todd’s off tour, are you gonna be around?" And then we’d call May to see what he’s up to. Some day maybe.

Eric:
I haven’t even heard it yet, I mean, chances are good I may hate it.

Davey Havok:
Yea, who knows? Who knows? Have you heard it?

Doug IOH:
No, I’m keeping myself away from anything up until its released.

Davey Havok:
Oh, [laughs] your friend won’t like it.

Eric:
No, I wouldn’t think he would.

Davey Havok:
[laughs] Probably less than AFI. [laughs]

Doug IOH:
Where did the same "Son of Sam" come from?

Davey Havok:
Well, Todd came up with it. It’s a play on the modern pronunciation of Samhain, it’s a tongue-in-cheek play on that, as well as the connection to David Berkowitz.

Eric:
I read a review that said your vocal styles are really different.

Davey Havok:
Its different, yeah... I mean, you can tell its me, but the music is not AFI by any means.

Eric:
You’re trying to sound like Glenn on that, aren’t you?

Davey Havok:
No, no! (laughs) I’m not trying to sound like Glenn, but let me say, I wasn’t trying to sound like Glenn, however I will say that when I get sent the tapes, I called those guys up and said, "I’m writing stuff that sounds like Samhain". They said, "Great". "But it sounds like Samhain... do you want me to try and do otherwise?" and they were like, "No no, that’s fine, go for it". Cause y’know, the music to me it was just like, it really sounded like Samhain songs to me so the first thing that came to my mind while writing the songs was very Samhain derivative/esque vocals. Glenn was Samhain... so I wasn’t trying to do anything, but... you know, its very rock. It's a lot more like, dirty rock... like, if we’re... if you were to try to go to either end of the spectrum, and you were to say that we’re (AFI) more towards like the glam-type rock, more like David Bowie and T-Rex... then this is more the bluesy-type rock.

Eric:
Are you expecting a lot of your AFI fans to appreciate Son of Sam?

Davey Havok:
I think they’ll like it, yea. I think they will. I mean really what it is... it's old deathrock. It really sounds a lot like old 80’s deathrock.

Eric:
The review, by the way, it's... it's excellent.

Davey Havok:
Oh, yeah?

Eric:
Yeah, it’s a very very good review.

Davey Havok:
The one that you saw? Oh that’s great! That’s great. That’s cool.

Doug IOH:
What’s your favorite Danzig song?

Davey Havok:
Umm... Soul on Fire.

Doug IOH:
This is sort of a question for everybody, but I don’t really see them... so uh, do you still practice veganism and straighedge?

Davey Havok:
I am straightedge. I have been for many many years, 10 or 11. Um, veganism, it depends on what your definition of veganism is. I eat honey and refined sugar. I don’t consume any other animal products to my knowledge in any way. I don’t care what you call it. Whether that’s vegan or not, whatever, that’s what I do.

Doug IOH:
What do you think of the new fans you’ve gained since receiving airplay on radio and television, and...

Davey Havok:
We get airplay on television?

Doug IOH:
Yea. MTV...

Davey Havok:
Oh, that one time!

Doug IOH:
Yea, that one time.

Davey Havok:
We were huge after that. [laughs] Yeah, we were on once like, a year? Or two years ago? Yea, they did this like, "Return of the Rock" program... "The world’s all-time heaviest videos, A to Z". And they played us, like right between Aerosmith and AC/DC. And I missed it! But my dad saw it, and my dad called me up and was like, "Dave, its 10:15, it's Saturday night, and I’m watching you on MTV". It was uh, Third Season.

Doug IOH:
Actually, Third Season I saw on 120 Minutes back...

Davey Havok:
No kidding?

Doug IOH:
Yea. Back a long time ago, actually.

Davey Havok:
Really? No one’s ever told me that before. None of us knew that.

Doug IOH:
Like before I knew who AFI was I saw this video...

Davey Havok:
Wow, that’s amazing. Oh! So to answer your question... You know we’ve gotten minimal, minimal radio play, and even more minimal... Who’s that? Robbie, you hear that? People are singing Poison! Damn! I’m missing out!

Doug IOH:
Oh, I’m sorry.

Davey Havok:
No, that’s okay. Um, yea, I really don’t think its affected us very much. I mean, maybe we got like, 20 - 30 more kids in California, 10 kids in Salt Lake, or something like that. But I mean, that airplay we got was very, very minimal. Unfortunately.

Eric:
Speaking of videos, are you gonna do any more before the DVD release? To put, like, an extra video on there?

Davey Havok:
I mean, we did Days of the Phoenix... maybe we’ll do one for Wester? If we have time, and if its necessary. If not, then no.

Doug IOH:
What’s your favorite Horror movie?

Davey Havok:
What period?

Doug IOH:
Umm... how about... the early stuff...like, "Creature".

Davey Havok:
Oh, the black and white, like the Universal classics? Bride of Frankenstein.

Doug IOH:
What about the 80s? [blank stare]

Eric:
Late 70s, early 80s?

Davey Havok:
Late 70s? The exorcist... or Rosemary’s Baby. Texas Chainsaw Massacre. 80's, Pumpkinhead, Halloween, the first two Nightmares... yeah, there you go.

Doug IOH:
Alright, how about favorite Gangster movie?

Eric:
Wait, the first two Nightmares?

Davey Havok:
Yea, the first two.

Eric:
Number two??

Davey Havok:
It's good.

Eric:
It's crap. What about three?

Davey Havok:
Three was good too. But I like the Wes Craven stuff better.

Eric:
Wait, Wes Craven didn’t do part two, he did part three.

Davey Havok:
[shakes head] No...

Eric:
You wanna go?

Davey Havok:
Let’s go! He did the first two.

Eric:
He did one, three and seven.

Davey Havok:
No way, he did one and two!

Eric:
I pinky swear.

Davey Havok:
Alright, I believe you. [laughs] I believe you. Umm... what?

Doug IOH:
Favorite Gangster movie.

Davey Havok:
Oh! Umm, God, there’s so many good ones! [pauses] Goodfellas. God, there’s so many good... Godfather Trilogy, Goodfellas, Casino... Resevoir Dogs is great, yeah.

Doug IOH:
What’s your favorite Director?

Davey Havok:
Tim Burton.

Doug IOH:
Favorite actor?

Davey Havok:
Johnny Depp.

Doug IOH:
Jason Cruz has just left Strung Out to pursue his artwork and tattooing full-time. (*)

Davey Havok:
What? Jay quit??

Doug IOH:
Yeah.

Davey Havok:
Really? To be a tattooist?

Doug IOH:
Yep. So now if you were to leave AFI to pursue, say, acting full-time exclusively with upcoming Director Eric Craven, what do you think the rest of the band would do?

Davey Havok:
What would they do? Before or after they killed me? [laughs] Let's say they didn’t kill me?

Doug IOH:
Yeah, what if they didn’t kill ya.

Davey Havok:
They would go on without me. They’d do something. They’d either do AFI, or they’d do something else, um, they would play music.

Eric:
You do realize you’d be starring in the crappiest movies of all time.

Davey Havok:
[laughs] Hey, c’mon Eric...

Doug IOH:
Do you find it hard to adjust to the afternoon sunshine during the Warped Tour after all of your extensive time in the darkness?

Davey Havok:
Very much so. Yea, its really not the most appropriate playing atmosphere for us, but, we’ve actually got used to it. You know, I’m totally not making this up, but when we were on those nine shows, half the shows, when we went on, the sun would disappear. Like, the clouds would cover it up, it would hide behind some sort of structure, it would start raining... something like that. It was true too.

Doug IOH:
Actually, at Buffalo, the clouds came over right after your first song.

Davey Havok:
See? So it worked out really well. Yea, lots of sunscreen... bringing a parasol this time! [laughs]

Doug IOH:
Alright, um, do any of you guys ever visit fan sites?

Davey Havok:
Sometimes yea, if I get on a computer, I’ll look at stuff.

Doug IOH:
Okay, um, The Misfits are going to be on the Warped Tour this year.

Davey Havok:
They are?

Doug IOH:
Yea, actually, some shows. Is there any chance you could be seen talking to or hanging out with any of them?

Davey Havok:
Probably [laughs] Everybody hangs out together on the Warped Tour. They are?

Doug IOH:
Yeah.

Davey Havok:
Weird. Didn’t know that.

Doug IOH:
Alright, I guess this is going to be the final one, what is the most asked question during one of these interviews?

Davey Havok:
There’s so many [laughs] The most asked is gotta... here’s the most asked questions: Could you please do a brief history of the band? What does AFI stand for? Um, Was the change from the first record up into the sixth record... up into the sixth? Fifth?

Doug IOH:
Fifth, yeah.

Davey Havok:
Fifth record, was that a natural progression, or is that something that you were striving for? Um, those are, I think, the most asked.

Eric:
I’ve heard a lot of Totalimmortal questions...

Davey Havok:
Oh God! Yea! And its always phrased, "So what’s up with the Offspring covering Totalimmortal?" That’s how its phrased, every time. Yes. Those are the ones, the main ones. With the occasional "Do you worship the devil?" Those first ones, those are it. Every interview. And you evaded all of those.

Doug IOH:
Yea, I tried to.

Davey Havok:
...Making this a great interview. And I appreciate that.

Doug IOH:
Well thank you.

Davey Havok:
Thank you so much for evading those questions (laughs) Cause I’ve answered them a million times.


THE END.



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* Not true anymore. Jason Cruz leaving Strung Out turned out to be an April Fool’s joke by Strung Out. Oops

Posted By mrsmadden @ 6:24 AM | Comments: 0

Tuesday, June 7th, 2005
Kurt Cobain
. Speakings from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complainee. This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the Punk Rock 101 Courses over the years, it's my first introduction to the, shall we say ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has been proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to, as well as creating music, along with really writing something for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things, for example when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins. It doesn't affect me in the way which it did for Freddie Mercury, whoseemed to love and relish the love and admiration from the crowd, which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any of you. It simply isn't fair to you, or to me. The worst crime can think of would be to pull people off by faking it, pretending as if I'm having one 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as though I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on-stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do, God believe me, I do, but it's not enough. I appreciate the fact that I, and we, have affected, and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of the narcisists who only appreciate things when they're alone. I'm too sensitive, I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm.But, what's sad is our child. On our last three tours, I've had a much betterappreciation of all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music. But I still can't get out the frustration, the guilt, and the sympathy I have for everybody. There is good in all of us, and I simply love people too much. So much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little sensitive unappreciative pisces Jesus man! why don't you just enjoy it? I dont know! I have a of a wide who sweats ambition and empathy, and a daughter who reminds me to much of what I use to be. full of love and joy, every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable self destructive, deathrocker she become. I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Empathy only because I love and feel for people too much I guess. Thank you from the pit of my burning nauseas stomach for your letters and concern during the last years. I'm too much of a neurotic moody person and I don't have the passion anymore, so remember, it's better to burn out, than to fade away. Peace, love, empathy, Kurt Cobain.

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar. Please keep going Courtney for Frances for her life which will be so much happier without me. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU!


Posted By mrsmadden @ 1:54 AM | Comments: 4

Friday, May 20th, 2005
Green Day
I hate all the people who only know Green Day for "AMERCIAN IDIOT" and say that they are Green Days biggest fans. NO YOU ARE NOT.Green Day are still punk not pop so fuck all of you who think that.just beacouse they play blvd.of broken dreams on some pop station dosent mean they are.

Posted By mrsmadden @ 7:00 PM | Comments: 2