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Wednesday, June 7th, 2006
New Pictures Anyone?
Hey everyone. It's just me Rynn here. I'm at my granny's house right now and I was thinking...I need some new pictures up don't I? All those pictures are so outdated. I look completely different now. I have a bright red mohawk and my make up is dark and I have a nose piercing on both sides and one in the middle. No, I'm playing, I'm not that drastically chaged but my hair and all is different and I think, I hope, I got a bit prettier!
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Friday, May 19th, 2006
I'm Happy but Not Really
I need him to live
I need him to see
I need him to know what goes on inside of me
My face is hot from all the tears it’s rejecting
My hands shake from the feeling of sadness
My body quivers from the loneliness it endures
I can’t live without him
I need him to know that I feel so much for him
I want him to care that what I feel will never go away
I need him to love me
Without him loving me I have no direction
No way to go
No one to love
No one to look forward to seeing
I can’t stand the thought of not living to see that day I finally admit I love him
I want to let him go
I want to let me go
I want this insanity to end
I want my body to not quiver any longer
I want my tears to not drop
I want my hands to be able to rest
I want my heart to be put to rest
I want to sleep and wake up knowing he will be there when I wake
I want to not feel like an idiot in love
I want him to want me
I want him to hold me in his arms and tell me he will never leave me
I want to feel like I actually belong to someone……………
Rynn 5-17-06
This poem is for JD Paul of Apartment 5!
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Friday, May 19th, 2006
WHOA!
Do you realize how long it has been since I have posted here? So much shit has gone on, I don't even know if I can fill you in! For starters, I'm Bisexual and I have a crush on my best friend! She doesn't know it! Umm, I have been hurt too many times to mention since my last post and I don't want to mention any of them! Umm, I went to see Story of the Year, From First to Last, Underoath, and a few other bands! I lost one of my best friends because we went out and she cheated on me! I fell in love and this time fo real with the drummer of APARTMENT 5! He is one of the sweetest people I have ever met! Damn, I know there is alot more that happened but I can't remember all of it now! Hey I'm gonna post the poem I wrote for JD, the guy from APARTMENT 5! Hey thanks everyone who actually read this!
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Saturday, December 10th, 2005
RIDE THE WINGS OF PESTILENCE
"Ride The Wings Of Pestilence"
Hiding behind the shadows
I'll be waiting in the dark
to drive this blade straight through your heart
I'll drag your body to the car
as blood races down my arm
I think everyone will wonder where you are, tonight
I'll hide you in my walls
your body will never be found
I'll wear your skin as a suit
Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to
Dear diary my teen angst bullshit has a body count
I believe it's 6 going on 7 now
I've been dreaming about you
in a pool of your own blood
with your eyes gouged out
by the work of my thumbs
the scent of your insides
from under the floorboards
the perfect perfume
for settling a score.
I'll hide you in my walls
your body will never be found
I'll wear your skin as a suit
Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to
Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to
Ride the wings of....
Ride the wings of....
Ride the wings of....
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
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Monday, December 5th, 2005
MEN ARE CRAP!
Well, I have been hurt by a guy for the third time! First by Alex, then by Chris and now by Christian! I am just going to stop loving people altogether! I can't even like someone without them being taken away! Holy Jesus!
What I would do to get the tears I cried for Christian back.
What I would do to get my hugs, kisses, bites and my love back from him.
What I would do to get my heart back from him.
And what I would do to make the pain go away!
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Saturday, October 29th, 2005
MY BIRTHDAY!
I just wanted to let everyone know that my birthday was the 23 of october! it was pretty kick ass, just thought i would let you know!
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Thursday, July 7th, 2005
High Poem
I got somethin in my ear and a knat in my nose.
I can barely hear and i just ate the water hose.
My eyes can barely see what's right in front of me.
I'm way to high and i feel like im in the sky.
I'm way too stoned to give my dog a bone.
I smoked too much pot and now my lungs are starting to rot.
A cop is at my door, I'm lying on the floor.
He shattered the glass and I can't feel my ass!
I got a joint on the floor and I'm really bored.
I just smoked a bowl and now I'm starting to roll.
I'm way to dizzy cuz there's something in my ear and a knat in my nose.
I can barely hear and I just ate the water hose.
My dog is now a snake and my mom just baked a cake.
In school I'm a flunk because I'm such a drunk and i dreamt that Lil John just got me CRUNK!
Now peace out my Homies, cuz there's a cop at my door and a joint on the floor.
And now I'm gonna smoke it!
Written By Rynn and Lauren!
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Friday, June 17th, 2005
THE END!
Two dark kids met on a same sad day.
They asked God, "Why'd you take my life away?"
They talked of sad times and talked of death wishes.
How his father hit him and her mom cursed at her in hisses.
When his mom left, his life faded away.
When her dad died, she wanted nothing but to die that day.
Their souls had withered away and were never coming back.
They longed for the love that they had always seemed to lack.
They met up one day on no special occasion and decided to give each other a try, they had not one reason.
He looked in her eyes as she looked into his.
And there they found the love from their wishes.
His dad died that night and he knew of nothing to do.
So he called her up and found her mom had left, too.
They mourned together, each day getting worse.
And then they relized it was time for something else.
They took a break from each other to find out who they were.
Only to come back the same, 12 years later.
They met and married, and had two kids.
They granted them every one of their wishes.
When they went out for fun, it ended in tragedy.
When their car made a quick turn and landed right in front of me.
The parents died but the kids were safe.
Left to dwell in pain in this unhappy place.
When the parents died that day and left their kids alone.
They had no other choice but to turn upon this same damn poem.
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Saturday, June 4th, 2005
Untitled i know how original
I know probably everyone out there whose read my posts is prolly tired of me bashing my ex-boyfriend. Im sorry, i just have one last thing i wrote about him that i would like everyone to hear(read)If someone is offended im sry.
You leaving was the best thing that ever happened to me, i know now i don't have to suffer from the shit you've dealt me.
i was there when we fell and i'll still be here in the end.
When you come back, I won't even remember who you are and what happened.
I believed you were better than what i had been told and now i see before my eyes the real you is starting to unfold.
Your a cheating little dick who won't even say sorry.
Although, i bet you wish you had one but that's a whole different story.
My friend could've done better to ensure that i was happy instead of rubbing it in my face like she did. But she went off with you and left me to suffer instead.
I hate both of you the same and i wish i didnt have to deal with this. But im the strong one and your the shitty little bitch.
I'm ending this now cuz i feel i've said what i needed to.
I hope you burn in hell and you'll get what's coming to you!
Rynn Cirilo 6-3-05
Okay im done now.
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Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
Its my B-Day and i wlll cry if i want to DAmmit...
Well, it's actually my best friend's birthday and it's not until tomorrow but i just wanted to wish her a happy birthday an early happy birthday. I LOVE U MARISA U ARE THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE AND TEH JOY IN MY HEART! EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE A MILLION MILES AWAY I WILL ALWAYS LOVE U! She's not a part of isound but i just wanted to let everyone know how much i love my friends!
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Tuesday, May 31st, 2005
Weekend
I can never get over the pain you caused me
I saw right through you but you never saw me
I saw it fall apart right before these very eyes
Even when you hide them, I can still see all the lies
You made a promise that you said you'd always keep
Although you broke that very promise just last week
So many promise to hurt you but the one i rely most on is with you
Why'd ou go with me when all you wanted was her?
Your such a shitty person and an even worse liar
I've never felt a pain like this before and if this is what it feels like then i don't want to love anymore
I thought you were good for me and i was good for you
You were the world to me and i was just a girl to you
But i'll soon be over this very subject and be with someone better
Who won't say they love me in a meaningless letter!
Dedicated to my ex boyfriend who cheated on me with my best friend right in front of me! LENNY I HATE U ! U R A DICK BUT I BET U WISH U HAD ONE!
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Sunday, May 29th, 2005
Friends Without Faces
We sit and we type and we stare at our screens,
We can't help but wonder what all of this means.
With mouse in hand ...we roam through this maze,
On an infinite search...lost in a daze.
We chat with each other, we type all our woes
At times we'll band together to gang up on our foes.
We wait for somebody, to type out our name
We want recognition, but it is always the same.
Soon friendships are formed - but - why we don't know,
But some of these friendships, will flourish and grow.
We give kisses and hugs, and sometimes we'll flirt,
In IMs we chat deeply, and reveal why we hurt.
Why is it on screen, we are so easily bold,
Telling our secrets, that have never been told.
The answer is simple, it is as clear as a bell,
We all have our problems, and need someone to tell.
We can't tell real people, but tell someone we must
So we turn to our 'puters ...and to those we can trust.
Even though it sounds crazy...the truth still remains,
Most of my "friends" have no faces...and odd little names.
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